Hey and welcome back again its been a couple of weeks since I’ve last blog to you all, this blogging is like a job only I’m not getting paid #whatever it’s hard keeping up to blog I be really busy and sometimes I don’t even know what to blog about and other times my brain is in a race trying to just write blog about everything but I want to keep my loyal readers entertained so I try to find things to blog about, last Friday while I was out enjoying myself at the movies I found out that my dearly beloved fur friend that I had since I was a child passed away many you may know how much he meant to me I was hurt I said that I was going to write a letter but I just can’t do it just too painful…… I’m done talking about KIBBLES lets just get into this blog.
Word that are unspoken I wish I had/have the courage to tell you how I feel it’s been awhile since that accident happened back in 2013 and I bet you don’t even remember or even care, lately it’s been hard being around I needed to just back away and try to mend our friendship it’s not the same how it used to be the person who I could trust I no longer can trust what you do or say and you always say TRUST ME but that is too hard to do, while you get to live happy and free after all this is over I’m still going to be reliving that nightmare all over again that nobody knows it still destroys me! these are the words being spoken that I wish I could say your words are like swords 🗡 being thrown in my back I wanted to fight fire with fire but I guess I became so weak I lost this battle……. Have you ever known someone who could judge and talk about another person so badly but can’t look at their own selves in the mirror and got bones hiding in their closet ? Yeah? well I deal with them kind of judgmental people all the same and the ones can be your own family I have always been the black sheep 🐑 of my family the outcast the family member that nobody could understand I was never understood and I’m just fine with that. Lately I’ve been so anxious and on edge I don’t know what it is maybe I’m exited because in six months my children will be coming back home after 10 years of not being in my care man this feels good and freedom once we finally move back to Indiana I can have a real smile and I can finally move on with my life with my family, I can’t wait until jan/feb 2022 cross your fingers 🤞🏽and keep your prayers going 🙏🏽we need all we can get and thank you so much for everyone prayers. but this is all the blogging I got in me tonight hope I will see you in the next blog.
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